I {Love} You

Three simple words that can change a relationship forever.

Its also three words that havent been spoken between Mr Deputy and Myself in months. Its also the three words that did a lot of damage to my emotions a few weeks ago. Except they werent said in a loving manner.

It was  used in one of those I love you but Im not in love with you ways. Let me tell you that hearing that hurt so much more than any names ive ever been called or any hurtful thing that has ever been spoken towards me in a fight. To know that your significant other has fallen out of love with you pretty much sums it up that things are over. Or are they?

Since that day we have been taking more time for ourselves and talking more or atleast trying to. Somedays we argue, somedays we dont. We just have ALOT of things to get out in the air before we can really decide what path we are going to take as a married couple.  Our path as parents are already set no matter what decision we come to as a couple. We know that we will continue to parent our children together to make things as normal as possible for them and so they can see that their parents love each other and them enough to get along and be friends.

We are going on thursday to get family photos with our children. We are trying to work through things as best as we possibly can. Its one day at a time at this point. Some days are worse than others, some days are better than others. Time will tell wether we will remain a couple or if we will go our seperate ways. But we are trying. We are making sure that if things dont work out we gave it our ALL that we tried 100% to make things work.

So there is the little update on Mr Deputy and I. Nothing much maybe a little progress only time will tell.

My little Artist

So let me set the scene for tonights little blog post....... Its been a very VERY long day with hardly any sleep which is totally my fault since i didnt go to bed at a decent hour or well at all. I just couldnt sleep so my patience has been thin today with the two little people in my house.

So This evening i got them settled down laying in their beds watching The Adams Family and decided to slip into the shower for a quick 5-10 minute mommy time. So my shower is nice and relaxing and i enjoy the peace and quiet for that short time period. When i get dressed and go out i see the kids bathroom light on. Ok no biggy Miss O leaves it on ALL the time after going potty.

So go into their room and they are in their beds and i go into bathroom to turn off light and you have to go almost to toilet for the light switch and

This is what i find ---------->

<---- and this side

and this side---------------->


YeP the whole tub. My little artist decided to give the tub a makeover. So i did the only logical thing

I made her Scrub the entire tub {with mommys help} other wise we would still be scrubbing...LOL

SO yea i learned my lesson on trying to take a shower while she is still awake.

Christmas Season has Begun :)

So Today like every year we put up the christmas tree and begin the christmas season. and like every year we have to buy new bulbs for the tree since the kids like to break them.

Last year it was the kittens fault...and the kids...LOL

So Miss O and I went to Walmart and i let her pick out this years theme. I was a little scared she would pick the package of pink and gold bulbs but she didnt she decided on Burgandy or dark red which ever you want to call it and a olive green set. So we got Green and Red Lights :)

<---- This is what the tree, looks like in the dark with the lights on.

I have had people ask if we put anything else on besides bulbs and I want to but our kids take them off and I want to get them special ones each year but i dont want them broken so they would be in boxes till they get older. Besides its our tradition just to use bulbs. and yes our tree is fake. and this fake tree sheds just like a real one and has saved us every year when money is tight!

So this is what the tree looks like with the lights on --->

I couldnt find our angel in storage or a angel i liked at the store so we just got a gold star this year. It took me forever to find our Angel so if i cant find it i will take the time to go around looking for a new one that is a perfect fit for our family.

I havent gotten to the stockings yet or the rest of how i want to decorate. It will have to wait till next weekend :).

Thursday we will be taking our Family Portraits. The first time in the whole time we have been together {5years} that Mr Deputy, Myself Miss O and Mr A will have photos done of just the 4 of us. Of course i love it when the 7 of us are together but this is our little family and I want some photos of it ya know? Then next weekend i am taking Miss C & O and Mr A in to get their Xmas pics done :) or i might do them myself depending on how camera friendly i am feeling next weekend.

This is my 250th blog post!!!! and I am now up to 17 followers one who is following announymously {I dont get the point of that but whatever floats your boat and tickles your pickle}. hehe

Anyway I am in the middle of writing a update blog on how Mr Deputy and I are doing. It will be up around Monday ish.. or so. Well I am off to watch G.I. Joe and 4 Christmases with Mr Deputy. He goes back to work tomorrow.

Happy Holiday Season! :)

Happy Thanksgiving......

Happy Thanksgiving From my family to yours. My Dad came down to drop off some christmas gifts for the kids. Early i know I think he just wanted to come down and get away from SJ. So while he was here Mr Deputy took a photo of him and I and Mr A and Miss O snuck in there as well. :)

Anyways, We hope that you enjoy your holiday however you will be spending it. To LE families that have to work BE SAFE!

The Deputy Family

A act of Kindness:

When doing your Christmas cards, take one and send it to this address: Holiday Mail for Heros P.O. Box 5456 Capitol Heights MD 20791-5456 If we pass this on, think of how many cards these wonderful special people would get. PASS THIS ON TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS. I thought this might be a nice thing to share with you all in blogging world. I know that at christmas time getting a simple card can do wonders to cheer someone up! Please Note they are requesting all cards be postmarked by DECEMBER 7th 2009 to ensure enough time to sort and deliver them! The holiday season is a time for giving! Happy Holidays!

Photographing Kids

When it comes to photographing kids for the most part i like to just let them be themselves. I dont like to do too much posing ( unless parents want a specific thing) With my own kids i just let them run free and take hundreds of shots for a few good ones. None the less my kids will have their childhood well documented :)

<----- Mr. A and his Green Eyes

Miss O and her goofy self -------->

<------ Miss O shes my brown eyed girl :)

Sometimes the best shots of Mr A -------->

are when he isnt even looking at the camera :)

<----- This is his mad Face. Even when Mad he is absolutely ADORABLE :P

The last photo I took this afternoon of the leaves--------->


Fall seems to be very short here where we live. you blink and its back to summer in a heartbeat...lol


Anyway i just wanted to share some photos again. I have things i could blog about but havent really felt like writing out. One day i will get back into "blogging" but for now i think I am on a little break.








Since Thanksgiving is Thursday here is what I am thankful for this year:

• My children
• My health
• Having a Home
• Having a few close friends that i can count on

Hope you have a very happy thanksgiving :)

Just some Late Night Photos

Miss O is up late so we had some fun taking a few photos together.

<----- Here is me.

Here is Miss O--------->

Isnt she just so cute :P I really love this little girl to death

<------ Us together. Momma and Daughter playing around late at night :)

I decided to bring it back

BOOK BLOG

I decided to go ahead and bring my book blog back and get it back up and running. with the winter months showing up soon i will spend alot of time reading books. Since it will be raining or what not outside so that wont leave much activities to do with the kids.

So yea i am way behind on my reviews of books ive read but soon enough it will be back up and running smoothly. I have put up a list on the side of the blog to see what i am reading, whats up next to read, and what is waiting for review. Once i get caught up the waiting to be reviewed tab will be gone :) I just have to do alot and i mean ALOT of writing to get caught up. I am using my GoodReads list of what i read to make sure i am blogging all books. Since i have been using that to keep track while this blog was down :)

So become a fan, suggest books for me. Keep my reading habit going!!! I love book suggestions so suggest away! ;p

Blackberry=Crackberry

So I recently got a Blackberry. And wow how this has changed how I do things I am really never on the computer anymore. Everything I like to check I have at my finger tips :)

Iam currently writing this blog out from my Black berry haha yep its my new crack. Iam a advid tweeter, facebooker and myspacer. Along with a advid blogger and email checker and its all right here. Yahoo messenger and Aim. I never need a computer again. As long as I have my crackberry I can stay in touch with anyone anywhere :p

Mr Deputy has one now too and he was like you are right once you get use to it Its addicting. Lol this coming from a man that really is never into anything non starwars related :)

So yep I have. Blackberry and its my new Crackberry

O Hi there....

Wow its been um days since i last blogged. Sorry been dealing with the crazy.

So lets see, Thursday night i went to a Twilight party with my friend AO. It was cool we ate watched twilight and played the twilight version of Scene it. Then it was off to see New Moon at 12:05am. It was So much better than twilight was made. They definately put more effort into New Moon then Twilight. So it was worth the late night out. The only thing i could do without is all the tweeny girls screaming when the movie came on etc.

So nothing else is really going on other than I have no car. My altinater went out so my car is just sitting. until we can get it fixed. sucks especially when the deputy has to go back to work but atleast Miss O has the next week off of school for thanksgiving break. Then i will have to figure out what i am goiing to do about the car situation.

I spent all of yesterday and i mean ALL of yesterday sleeping. I was up maybe 3 hours total lastnight to eat and watch tv and then went back to sleep. Im getting old, i cant take these late night outs anymore...LOL WOW and Im only on the verge of being 29.

Oh yea a couple days ago i finished Precious by Sapphire. It was a good read. Took me alittle while to get use to the language she used. Im not use to reading in iliterate form. I kept changing the sentences to proper english... and i had to step away once because of the abuse. But it was a good read. I reccommend it to anyone that likes to read and doesnt mind the use of vulgar language :)

Well thats whats up. Im off to walk to the park with the kids. This weather is wonky rain, sun rain sun. MAKE UP YOUR MIND!!!!

Baking Fun

Last night we decided to make some cupcakes. Healthy cupcakes, a way for mommy to sneak some extra good stuff into food i know Mr A will eat. So we made Chocolate Fudge Cupcakes here is the recipe:

Box of Chocolate Cake mix
1 can of pumpkin

Mix Cake mix and pumpkin then follow baking directions on cake mix box.

It was so simple and healthy. It gave the kids a boost of fiber and took out the oil and eggs from the equation. The Kids loved them especially Mr A who loves all things junk food :)
                                        Miss O gettting ready to bake------>

<------- Mr A Is ready too :)

Miss O taking her turn mixing--------------->

<------ Mr A getting his turn

awwwww They even worked together mixing the cake. From this point mommy took over and baked 24 cupcakes :) All in all it was a fun family oriented night with my babies :)

Reminiscing

I still remember the day we first met as vividly as it were yesterday. I had barely gotten to work to begin my shift and was joking around with Bobby behind the counter when you pulled into the store parking lot. You were in the car with a girl and you were dressed in regular clothes.

I have always had a thing for men with a shaved head. You came in for Coffee and a pack of smokes. You joked with Bobby for a little while. While you were there I just stood silently behind the counter. As you were walking out I made the comment to Bobby about wanting to rub your head.

So Bobby shouted to you Hey Deputy XXX, she wants to rub your head.

I was completely mortified that she said that. I know my cheeks were turning bright red then. You just smiled and said back Which One. Then you walked out.

Bobby and I joked for a little while longer about what she said. My obvious comment being that I was going to kill her. {Not literally} About a hour later you came walking back into the station with your uniform on to talk to me. We talked for 45 minutes.

I managed to keep a conversation with you by “acting” like I wanted to know how to become a deputy. It worked because you stood there and talked to me. That is until you got a call. J It so happened to be your Friday so I didn’t see you again until you came back on duty.

When you came back into the station I was in the back on a phone call that I wasn’t suppose to be on when you walked into the back of the store and scared the hell out of me. I came out and sat on the ice cream cooler for another 45 minutes just talking to you.

Talking to you is what ultimately got me fired. Yes You got me fired from the station. So how was I suppose to see you again. Well I gave one of my old co-workers my cell number on a paper to give to you. Took you a while but you ended up calling me. I remember those long nights talking to you until 2 or 3 in the morning. We talked about anything and everything. You asked me out a few times and I would accept then cancel on you at the last minute.

Then I finally gave in and went out with you. That first date we had was the best date I ever had in my life. It wasn’t awkward or anything like 1st dates usually are. There was a sense of peace between us. Like we had been dating an knew each other for years. We went to the drive in and didn’t really even watch the movies even though I remember exactly what was playing that night. Texas Chainsaw Massacre and Freddy Verses Jason. We talked through the movies and just enjoyed each others company.

Our first date was over 18 hours long. It was the longest date in both our records. I knew from that moment that we had something special. And I was right. From that point on we were together when ever possible. I got a new job at a restaurant you would come in at least one day a week and eat giving us a chance to exchange looks or little touches as I would walk by your table.

After I got off work some nights I would go on ride a longs with you and enjoy the county. We would talk about everything and just enjoy each other.

When I got Pregnant with Miss O, that set our entire future into place. We may have had a rough start but I wouldn’t change it for anything. So I am sitting here reminiscing about how we met and how our love started. I truly believe that we have only hit a minor rough patch now and our love will survive. Although I haven’t told you this. But you already know I have a hard time conveying my feelings to you.

I do Absolutely love you Mr. Deputy. This is one thing I know for certain.

"Product"tive Sunday

So These wonderful little Juice boxes are on my Buy-N-Try list.

Apple and Eve have made getting my little one to have a serving of Veggies ALOT easier now!

Mr A wont touch vegatables for the life of him and is starting to pick up on moms use in random foods...lol

I know its probably bad to sneak vegatables in but i have to get them in him some way. So heck why not give these little juice boxes a try!

Here is a link to the site for more information Fruitables. He loves Juice so hopefully he will like them!

Getting My Health Back

So I havent been in really well health lately. With the migraines, the Costochondritis, My moods {The have been uber bad lately} and just dealing with life in general. I am fighting off a cold that is trying HARD to get into my system, It has yet to succeed in doing so. I thought it was winning the other day but so far so good. I am taking Extra Vitamin C {its giving me both a stomach ache and heartburn. YUCK}.

I have started to take Ali to help with my weight loss journey. So we shall see how it goes. I have also decided to start taking my Prozac again. Not that I am uber depressed but it helped alot with my mood swings. So those little green and white pills are back in my schedule. But that means that I am going to have to cut back my 800mg motrins. There is a risk of bleeding when taken together so hopefully it will help with my headaches too. That or i will have to go back to taking Tylenol.

So thats what I am getting at with getting my help back.......

I went and switched my medical stuff closer to our new house. Thursday I will go and get my new Rx for my glasses. Getting those back should help the headaches. I know thats one of the causes of my migraines. This coming friday we are going to go get our Family photos done. Mr Deputy, Myself, Miss O and Mr A. Just our little family. It will be nice for the kids to have photos of the 4 of us together :)

I havent been able to bring myself to blogging about Mr Deputy and I. I just dont feel like sharing the uncertainty that is "US" right now... One day in the future regardless of how things turn out i will be ready to blog about it. until then its just private things that dont need to be shared.

Well im off to read. I have just about 125 pages left in Tempted by PC Cast and Kristin Cast and today i picked up Precious { the one that is the basis for the new movie that just came out} along with the other books on my list to read...LOL Not to mention all the ones on my wish list...

Yikes...

So I havent much been in a blogging mood; I have been dealing with a headache that just wont go away. Even though i am medicating myself. Life in our house has been good. Miss C is down for the weekend and tomorrow is family day minus Mr Deputy since its his work weekend. ugh.

I have a busy week this week but its exciting. Thursday I am going to a Twilight party then at midnight we are going to see new moon :) So that will be my fun girls night out! hahaa.

I was thinking about heading to the coast in the morning but my head hurts so bad that i doubt i will be willing to get up early in the morning to drive with the kids. Plus i was thinking about doing the drive in tomorrow night with the kids and a friend and her kids.

So ive been reading Tempted the 6th book in The House of Night Series by PC Cast and Kristin Cast. Its only 320 pages which is like a day or less read for me but between the kids, errands and my head throbbing its taken me a week to get to page 185 and thats where i sit as of right now...lol After this book i have 4 books on my list to read

• Mr Darcy, Vampyre By Amanda Grange
• The Accidental Mother By Rowan Coleman
• The Time Traveler's Wife By Audrey Niffenegger
• What She Wants By Cathy Kelly

Im shocked that only one of them is in my Vampyre genre of facination...LOL Mr Deputy thought i should get away from Vampyre books for a while and expand my mind. which he is right...LOL

Well Im off to get my "product"tive Sunday post ready and then bed. Im sure there will be some type of photos from tomorrow of Miss C :)

Miss O will start Gymnastics

This afternoon or tomorrow {depending on when i get up and out of the house} I will be takiing Miss O over to Byers Gymnastics to sign her up. We were going to do this at the other house with both the girls but then the move happened. So now that we are over here its time to actually do it!

Miss O has been tumbling already in the dining room {no worries we still have no dining table so its a wide space}. She has been trying to perfect her Handstand and front walk-over...haha although the front walk over was not intentional. Im so excited to have her do this.

I did Gymnastics from a young age through 9th grade then i just stopped. Alot of the time i wish i wouldnt have stopped. I love doing it.. I was on the highschool gymnastics team. I think i ended up stopping because they cut the team from the school.. I cant really remember.

But it was a fantastic time for me. I loved it. I know that Miss O will love it too. She is just like her momma! So Now i have something new to blog about too :)

Yep this is self explainitory:

November 19th at 12:05 am {technically the 20th} My Friend AO and I will be at the movie theater with a bunch a tweenies and their twimoms...LOL I CANT WAIT

Up up and awake

So its 1:35am and I am awake for several reasons.

The first reason being the my head is hurting so bad. well beyond bad. My migraines seem to be getting more frequent they used to be 1-2 times a month at the most now its more like 5-6 days out of the week. I have 800mg Motrins for my Costochondritis that use to work on my migraines as well. Not anymore. i guess my body is immune to it now. So i made a Appt with my Dr for Friday to see whats up and talk migraine treatments. Also to have her check out a hard lump on my head. It feels like a Cyst or something idk. its just bugging me.

The second reason i am up is because my body is starting to loose its battle with trying to keep this cold or whatever it is away.  All day my stomach has been in knots and i have been needing to use the ladies room every 20 or so minutes. So everytime i just fall asleep my body says get the hell up and get in the bathroom. Even though i feel like shit i am forcing myself to keep going.

Since the kids are asleep i decided now was a perfect time to give the house a good scrub. Well the kitchen atleast. I also deep vaccumed {Deep Vaccum- moving furniture and doing around base boards} the living room so its not cluttered etc when you walk in my door. I also lite my Paula Dean Creme Bruele Candle. I love the scent and how it fills the entire house.

So now i sit here and blog and watch old episodes of Roseanne. I am no longer tired; so i am going to tackle some of the laundry. Even when i am feeling shitty i still have to keep the house going. otherwise it would look like a hurricane came through and the president would called it a Major Emergency...lol

ewww Laundry.. Nighty Night!

I Said I want a Taco... NOW

Dropping Miss O off at school this morning and heading home Mr A was in the back seat talking away.

Mr A- Mom I have to go potty in the potty
Me- Ok we are almost home
Mr A- No home I WANT A TACCCCCCCCCCCCCO NOW
Me- you want a taco?
Mr A- YES TACOOOOO NOW mom.

So Taco Bell it is. Got him his two tacos. We are Driving home from there now

Mr A- MOM i said i want a TACO NOW
Me- U cant eat a taco in my car boy.. almost home


Got home and is walking into the house

Mr A- MOOOOOOMMMM I peed
Me- Crap Ok come on... Lets go change your clothes and then you can have your taco
Mr A- NO mom i dont want a Taco. I want to Potty in the Potty.

Omg ok i love this kid to death... Yep this is how my day is going. other than that i am just loading myself up on Vitamin C to help get past this cold or whatever it is knocking on my chest to come in and make itsself at home. I cant afford to be sick. I dont want to be sick.... Well who ever does actually want to be sick...lol

So today is just a lazy day. I really need to rest I havent been sleeping well at all at night. and of course when i do fall asleep Mr A is right awake to make sure its only for a short time.

Gotta Love Kids

*This post was soo pointless...LOL*

Zoo Days

So today we went to the Zoo in town and had some fun! We went with a friend and enjoyed a few hours with our youngest children!

So i just wanted to share the photos with you

<---- Miss O

Mr A----------->

He was having a good old time trying to Climb into the enclosures with the Animals.

Mean while mommy wasnt having a good time with his attitude.

<------- Miss O, Mr A and our friend AO's daughters Miss L and Miss M on the little car

Miss O & Miss M-------------------------->

Enjoying the new found friendship :)


I must say that I would have totally stolen Miss M from AO. She is the sweetest little thing EVER and she LOVES the Camera! I could take so many photos of her!!!!!!

Yep so that was our sunday with friends. Now its time for dinner and baths and bunkering down for school tomorrow :)

"Product"tive Sunday

Each year, an estimated 500 billion to 1 trillion plastic bags are consumed worldwide. That comes out to over one million per minute. Billions end up as litter each year. As a non-biodegradable, they are rapidly polluting the environment and the world is taking notice. 60BAG has developed a new type of bag that biodegrades over the course of 60 days.




60BAGs a breakthrough advance over the so-called “green bags” produced with polypropylene material, as well as the thick plastic bags given away by most clothing retailers. 60BAG is a great commercial opportunity for the companies committed to supporting an eco-friendly lifestyle.

So Technically these products wont be out until Next year so they have made it onto my Buy-N-Try list.

I think its great :) Recently at a trip to walmart the cashier asked if i had noticed her sign just below the price shower thingy(LOL) so i looked down Begining on November 29th our area walmart will no longer be giving plastic bags in a effort to go green.

So what does that mean for the everyday walmart shopper? You either put your stuff back in your cart like Costco & Sams Club does it or you have a option to buy reusable bags. They have the Dollar bag ( YIKES) imagine buying each bag for a dollar when you are going on a huge shopping adventure like i usually do when i go to walmart i am there to stock up so that would add $20-$30 bucks onto my trip. or they have a .15 cent bag. Now that sounds more like it.

So in a effort to be more green already; i have bags for shopping i just forget to bring them but i thought this new product was cool :) Even though there was no price that i could see for it. Im sure it will be a investment like all new things that come out.....

Family Fun...

Today was a great day. Everything about it was great. It was Mr Deputy, Miss O, Mr A and I all day long. The morning was relaxing and not rushed. We went out to DQ for lunch/sweet treats {Ice Cream} and then spent the afternoon at the park. I know right its november and we got to go to the park! Its been soo hot or well warm still like its summer not fall. But today was a GREAT day. We had fun as a family, these are the moments i love. Well i love all the moments with my family but these are the best. So here are a few pics.
{Click them to see them bigger}

The kids had a blast and so did we! Tomorrow Mr Deputy has work so we will be going to the zoo with a friend :) So i am sure there will be photos of that...lol

Meetings and testing galore...

This afternoon i had a appt with Ms S the speech therapist at Miss Os school. She went over her new IEP which really isnt new its just put on their school papers. Its the same plan she had at the old school 1 hour a week broken into 2 half hour sessions. There is a  new thing added though.

In December i will sit down with Miss O's Teacher, The speech therapist, a academic specialist and a pyschologist. They are going to be testing Miss O over the next few weeks to determine if she needs any other programs. If she needs more help then the next step is to do another placement which means Miss O would go to a new school that has classes taught by speech therapists. Instead of a hour a week of speech she will have the help she needs fulltime for the class duration each day.

Well thats if i decide to place her there instead of keeping her in the mainstream. I think that if they recommend this placement i will take the time to go look at the new school and speak the the teachers there and ask how the tranistion back into mainstream schooling is handled. Because at some point she is going to have to go back into regular public school right?

I know that i will decide that she will end up going there if need be, simply because its the best option for her. If there is a opprotunity given to her to be where she can get the most help it would be bad of me not to place her there. that to me would be holding her back from her full potential.

So i feel like i am actually getting somewhere. I was worried i was going to hit a bunch of brick walls and have to struggle to get answers but the speech therapist took the time to answer things and assure me that Miss O wouldnt be left behind and would get the help she needed whatever that may be.

So now we sit and just wait. She will go to speech 2 times a week and the academic specialist and the pyshcologist will be observing her and testing her and then in the first week of December we will all sit down and discuss whats best for Miss O.

Holiday 2009 Photos

So yesterday afternoon we had our holiday photos done at The Picture People. Needless to say I am starting to loose faith in this company. Our Photographer didnt listen to our request at all. We specifically said we wanted all photos to have a christmas theme to it. Had to tell him 3 times even then he didnt bring any of the cute props in that others were getting to use. Anyway here is our session. Oh and we only got 9 semi decent photos... Im use to getting 16-17 atleast from them...ugh

First one of All of Us... I edited these once we got home... to make them POP more...

This one is good I think... Mr Deputy looks slightly sleepy though...lol

This is the one we got for our christmas cards. it was the best of the bunch of all of us.

This is actually my favorite one of the kids and I but they caught Mr Deputy with his Eyes closed...UGH

 Miss O and Mr A.. They had fun on the sleigh.

LOVE Miss Os open mouth here but notice he didnt take the time to get them to actually look AT the camera:)

This one is kinda cute.. i have no clue what they are looking at though.

eh idk maybe if the oranament props actually MATCHED the tree...lol

I actually really like this one of Miss O... just wish the ornament matched the decor better.

So before our appt we got there a little early We decided to do a fam picture with Santa. Although Its not the best Atleast these ladies TRIED to get our son to smile and look at the camera...

Of course Santa looks well he is having a good ol time...LOL

So this is our Famiily 2009 collection of portraits from the Deputy Family :)

Honest Scrap Awards...

 

 

Thank you to Mrs Fuzz over at☞ A Police Wife for giving me my first ever Blog award ☺. So Lets get to it shall we. In order to accept the Honest Scrap Award you must list 10 honest things about yourself and then pass the award along to 7 other bloggers.

1. Im terible at my business, why do i say that? Simply because I can never actually end up charging people for their sessions. I just love taking photographs and dont really care about the money part. This makes me a horrible business woman.
2. I am obsessed with Vampyre stuff. I admit that the only books i read lately has to do with Vampyres, I have other books that arent vampyre related but they are sitting collecting dust on my nightstand. When i run out of Vampyre books to read and I should start the others I just start re-reading my Vamp series...lol I am even going to venture out at midnight for the first showing of New Moon.
3. Ive always wanted to be a Family Law Attorney, still do actually. Even though i have put my dreams and goals on hold to be with my kids i still eventually want to go back to school and become a lawyer. right now i just feel like i would be cheating my kids by putting my family into debt to be a lawyer but when the kids are grown i dont have a problem graduating law school as the oldest lawyer to start a career...LOL
4. I bite my nails constantly, Its out of habit when "bad" stuff would happen as a kid in my house and its just been here ever since. Now nothing bad has to happen i will catch myself doing it just sitting on the couch watching TV.
5. Im a shop a holic. for my kids that is. I can not go into Target, Old Navy, Gap, TCP and even walmart without coming out with some cute outfit for one of my kids and then i feel badly about it and  have to go get them all something. but they use every outfit i buy so its not a waste. or atleast that is my justification.
6. I love Candles, when the kids are older i will be bringing out all my candles again. right now its just not safe but I LOVE candles that is the best thing anyone could ever get me well other than a new Vamp book.
7. The first concert i ever went to was when i was 9 and it was NKOTB and I admit i was right there screaming I LOVE YOU JOEY with all the other little girls....lol
8. The best time of my life was the short period i lived in Las Vegas at 18 years old, It was fun and exciting to be away from my mom and i got into ALOT of trouble resulting in the birth of my first child.
9. I am OCD about blogging. I will admit i blog way too much... atleast thats what others tell me. i just love to write.
10. There is nothing i wouldnt do for anyone else. I have a giving heart and tend to give to others before giving to myself and alot of the time it backfires in my face. I am always there for anyone wether i know you or not i will always try to find a way to help someone out and I feel aweful when i cant.

So when you think about it i think i am a pretty boring person. well maybe not boring but just ordinary i have no quirks that are funny Im just me.

So on to giving the next 7 honest scrap awards, 7 random blogs that i choose. sorry if there are repeats:

1. Because of Love
2. Do NOT worry I will fight for YOU
3. The Sweetest Things.....
4. This is the story of a girl
5. A Bugs Life
6. Wilson Family Love
7. Figuring it out as as I go

 Happy Blogging :)

Learning is a funny thing

So Miss O stayed home from school today. She wasnt feeling well. She actually hasnt been feeling well for a while now. So I decided to go ahead and let her stay home today. Which gave me a chance at naptime for Mr A to sit down and try to see how much she understands etc.

So we sat down and did 5 pages of her homework. Oh and let me just say that her homework packet is 10 pages.. 10? isnt that alot for a  kindergartener? Anyway, so we sat down and did her homework. My child understands if you take the time to teach her. She understood to color the bats that had ryhming words on them yellow and the ones that didnt needed to be colored orange.

She understood how to count the pictures of the Pies, Turtles, Bunnies etc and write the number of each one on the line. sure she doesnt write neatly but hell who had perfect hand writing in kindergarten?  She understoon when i told her to cut out and paste the photos of object that started with the letter B around the Bear on the paper. She got all 5 of the objects right.

She listened intently while i was reading her a book; stopping me to ask what the word was. Everytime there was a M she would say mommy thats a M it sounds like mmmm. My daughter in no way doesnt understand. I think that my daughter needs a teacher that can take the time to give her individual attention and make sure she is doing things right. I realize that she isnt the only child in class and cant really get that at school.

So what am I suppose to do. I am thinking about going to a homeschooling supply store and getting kindergarten supplies that cordinate with what her teacher is working on in class and teaching her extra at home. So she will go 3 hours to school and come home and do another hour or two with mom. that way i am there for her giving her the individual attention she needs.

I cant sucessfully homeschool her. there is just no way to do that. Well there is but i am not comfortable putting her education completely in my hands alone. I dont feel that i am capable of doing that. I do feel like i am capable of being a second teacher to her. The person that will go behind and teach her what she was already taught in her class that day. That is going to take me talking with her teacher and finding the lesson plan and copying everything for home use.

I dont know how else to do this. She isnt "dumb" She just needs a teacher that is patient with her. Who else is a better person to do it? I am her Mother it is up to me to make sure that she is getting all that she needs. It is up to me to make sure that she doesnt slip through the cracks and the little girl i saw this afternoon was not who the teacher was saying she is. She was a little girl eager and willing to learn, alittle girl that was happy to receive praise for her good work and a little girl that knew it would be ok when mommy had to erase something for her to do over.

My Daughter is bright, yes she may have a hard time understanding at first but when you take the time to break things down to make it easier for her to learn you see her start to enjoy things.

The best thing about today was seeing the little light in her head go off and her have that Oh i get it and can do this look on her face. THE BEST.

Advocate for Miss O

This morning i had a appt with the speech therapist at Miss O's school. HAD being the key word. The school called to cancel because the therapist was called to another school today to cover for someone else. So this is the begining of my frustrations; already stood up by the school and feeling like they dont even care. Yes this may just be another child to them but this is MY child.

MY child will NOT slip through the cracks and not get the help she needs. I sent a email in to the local chapter of ARC ( google it.) and while Miss O might not even be a special needs child yet i have to start somewhere. she has already been in school for almost 4 months and isnt showing improvement from when she started.


What is a mommy to do. I am definately not one of those moms to just let it go and hope for the best. I WANT my child(ren) to suceed in their Education. So I will start blogging about my progress and struggle with Miss O and her needs.

I am making this promise to Miss O that She will get whatever help she needs so that she can understand and learn and grow. She will not slip through the cracks. SHE WILL NOT

"Product"tive Sunday

So I have decided that Sundays are dedicated to Product Buzz Days. Each sunday i will Product Buzz one or two products that i have Used-N-Loved, or that are on my list to Buy-N-Try :) So for my first official "Product"tive Sunday I have decided to Buzz about Hair care products. Yep thats right ladies you all know we search and search for that perfect product for our hair.

PAUL MITCHELL- TEA TREE CARE

Shampoo & Conditioner.

So I have Extremely Dry Scalp. So much that i cant wash my hair but every 2-3 days and i have major dandruff. Not readily something i would normally admit.

I was at my wits end with products that werent working for me. The last time i went and got my hair cut { about 8 months ago } I asked the lady at the salon i went to what she would recommend for my dry scalp.

She reccommended Paul Mitchells Tea Tree Care. She said it would refresh and leave my hair feeling clean & build up free. Now im not usually one to get suckered into hair products at the salon because we all know that they cost a arm and a leg. But I just wanted to try it, No scratch the wanted I needed to try it.

So I took a container of the shampoo and conditioner home with me. Yep best thing i could have ever done. I use it twice a week (every other wash). The pepermintish smell totally refreshes me in a hot shower and my hair feels sooo soft and clean and build up free. So this is on my permanent list of things to buy. I buy it every 3-4 months. Thats how long the big container lasts me. and i have pretty long thick hair.

So i bet your wondering how much this is going to cost????? Because we all know we dont like paying alot for products { well atleast I dont.} but this is SOOOO worth it: you can get the duo 33.8fl oz each for $48.00 plus shipping {just click the price to go to the link} Ouch I know ALOT... but worth it This is definately one product that i have Used-N-Loved